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Wednesday, December 24th, 2003
12:34 pm
in the future....
people will be sent to distant lands....
in beams of light....

(Try to figure me out....)

Sunday, December 21st, 2003
2:17 pm - The External.... The Internal....
The external....
Disheveled and confused....
Awakened from a year of forced slumber.
The internal....
Shell-shocked....
Aware of the intentions of the other.

The external....
The internal....
The man....
The boy....

The compromise....

This may be a new beginning....

current mood: confused

(Try to figure me out....)

Sunday, November 3rd, 2002
8:26 am - Shattered....
Pieces....
Pieces of you and me....
Shattered....

Put yourself back together boy....
You've got to make it through....
Don't go along feeling broken now....
You know that's what you do....

I can't help you....
I'm so misunderstood....
Take your time now....
Make sure you know....

If only you would have known....
If only it seems....
The pieces fall together....
When nightmares return to dreams....

(Try to figure me out....)

Thursday, August 29th, 2002
9:45 pm - High & Dry....
'You kill yourself for recognition.... You kill yourself to never, ever stop....'

High....
and dry....
I lost myself somewhere on Interstate 10. It's hard to understand your place in the world when you don't remember who you are.
Anyway, the relocation is anything but complete. My job opportunities fell through.... I have yet to find a place of my own.... etc..... etc.... Needless to say, I'm a disaster.
Eventually things will right themselves....
I hope.

current mood: numb

(1 Misconception | Try to figure me out....)

Monday, August 26th, 2002
2:05 pm
It falls....
It falls around me....

(Try to figure me out....)

Wednesday, July 10th, 2002
3:03 pm
It only hurts when I breathe.....

(Try to figure me out....)

Saturday, June 22nd, 2002
2:21 am - Leaving....
Time flies by....
The days seem to disappear in an instant.
I wish I could relive every moment that I have spent with you....
I wish for a never-ending romance....
I wish for you....

I hate to leave....
but I will return.
I love you....
only you!!!

(1 Misconception | Try to figure me out....)

Wednesday, May 29th, 2002
2:58 pm



you're american beauty. you're full of hope and appreciate the beautiful things in life.

take the which prettie movie are you? quiz, a product of the slinkstercool community.

(Try to figure me out....)

Wednesday, May 22nd, 2002
5:16 pm - Into the Dark....
'In your eyes I see the darkness that torments you.... and in your head where it dwells....'

Walk away....
Turn around and run....
Into the dark....
Into this hell....

Let's walk away....
We are on the brink of fading out....
We are close to our end....

Is there a glimmer of hope left???
Is there something worth recovering???

Whatever?!?

current mood: mischievous

(1 Misconception | Try to figure me out....)

2:38 am


take the emo quiz
.created by jessi

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Monday, May 20th, 2002
7:17 pm - Damaged....
'Healing comes painfully.... and it chills to the bone.... Won't let anyone get close to me.... I'm damaged as I'm sure you know....'

I'm weakened by persuasion.....
Your words damage me....
You can't take it back....
I must go on....
Silent, inside....
Abused....










Wait....
There's something I think I should say....
Nevermind....
I don't think I will ever be strong enough to defend myself.

current mood: intimidated

(2 Misconceptions | Try to figure me out....)

Tuesday, May 14th, 2002
6:06 pm - Get Gone....
'How many times can it escalate 'til it elevates to a place I can't breathe....'

Choking on the abundance of air....
This staleness of life needs to get gone....
Fucking go....

We are in need of radical change....
Some kind of fucking change....

current mood: annoyed

(3 Misconceptions | Try to figure me out....)

Saturday, May 11th, 2002
9:35 pm - Colorful....
'Most were being good for goodness sake.... but you wouldn't pantomime....'

Indisposable....
Inconcievable....
Yet.... attainable.
Yes.... attainable.

Will you ever reach that place you call home???
Will you walk in shadows the rest of your days???
The answer lies within you....
You....
The goddess of beauty....
and destiny.

It's a matter of retribution....
A colorful spectrum of light and illusion....
and all you see is grey.

current mood: calm

(Try to figure me out....)

Thursday, May 2nd, 2002
5:09 pm - This Mess We're In....
'The city sun sets over me....'

What was it???
You wanted this....
You asked and you recieved....
Are you happy???
Is there now certainty in you life???
What.... more???

Don't ever change....
You have, but you haven't....
The infinite restructuring of your life is yet to be completed...
Do you understand the severity of your choices???
It's simple....
What were you wanting???

current mood: fucked

(1 Misconception | Try to figure me out....)

Monday, April 29th, 2002
12:33 pm
I'm Smallville!
What WB drama are you?


Sadly.... I had to cheat on this one. My first result was Dawson's Creek. How likely?!?!

(Try to figure me out....)

Friday, April 19th, 2002
11:55 pm - Believe Me....
'Wanting you to reach out from the dark.... to wake up from the cold....
Wanting you is all I can do.... things you never say....'

It occurs to me that the living have a morbid fascination with the dead..... It also occurs to me that most of us walk around presuming that we are alive. What irony???
We are.... zombies.
We are.... the perpetual dead.
We are.... ghosts???
I seem to have some vague realization that I once had a life.... but now it seems like I was only becoming. I've forced myself into a false reality.... a dream life.
I am.... alone.
I am.... one against all.
I am.... otherwise alive???
The sky melts from cloudless blue to perilous black. Your voice echoes through these hollow halls. Your prayers are whispered as the shades fall.
Nights like these....
Nights like every other....
Nights like no other....
Believe me.... the stars never looked more beautiful.

current mood: cynical

(Try to figure me out....)

Saturday, April 13th, 2002
9:28 pm
No thoughts today....
just...
emptiness....
and lonliness....

Nothing I want to say....

(Try to figure me out....)

Thursday, April 11th, 2002
11:48 pm

which poe song are you?

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Friday, April 5th, 2002
11:45 pm - The Hardest Goodbye....
Grace....

First of all.... I love you. I will (and have) always loved you. Being in love with you is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. I don't know who I would be if I had never met you. I don't want to think about it.... because with you I am a better person. You are the reason why I am who I am today.
Secondly.... Thank you. Thank you for everything this past week. Thank you for sharing yourself and your life with me. Believe me.... I am not ready to leave you. Leaving you will always be the hardest goodbye.
Seriously, love.... I will never understand how you could come to love me to the same extent that I love you. Everything with you feels so right.... and I have never felt so loved by anyone. Words will never capture the feelings that we share for each other.
Tomorrow will be the longest day of my life.... tonight I just want to be with you. Grace, you are the love of my life.... and I will forever be yours.

current mood: grateful

(1 Misconception | Try to figure me out....)

Tuesday, March 26th, 2002
10:45 pm
I held so tight and childlike....
but now I'm finally letting go.

(Try to figure me out....)

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